February 2012
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Today was a good day
Spoke to my Dad and my sister on the phone, was good to catch up with them both :)
Got organised a bit, which always feels good
I solved a mini-financial crisis without asking for help (esp. from TallGuy) It’s slightly more expensive this way but it’s my own fault in the first place and at least I feel more independent
And work went pretty well…
although I’m worried...
trying to...
tidy up
but i keep sitting down
haha
Saturday
was so much fun :) Really good to see friends and catch up
I should be sleeping right now though, not tumblin’
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IOU, piggy
I complained a little yesterday because I was feeling ill, and a lot today because I was pissed off at work.
Also, i’ve run out of coins.
did not complain about anything today. good!
@onehitwonderin
good advice, thanks :)
@onehitwonderin
That’s the plan :) I’m sure I’ll keep slipping up for a while, but I’m so much more aware of it and will keep trying!
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Hmm
It’s my Dad’s birthday in 4 days. I’m not going to be able to visit (due to money) but I can still get him a birthday present. Maybe I can post it.
Usually I get him a CD, something I’ve been listening to recently, something he’s not familiar with, and he loves this.
The question is, what’s new?
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you can’t catch me, I’m the gingerbread man
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Another £ for the pig
I realised yesterday how much of a negative culture there is at the shop where I work. It’s totally normal and acceptable to complain about everything. Staff tell each other that they can’t be bothered today, they can’t wait to get home, they hate this place or person, they shouldn’t even be here today, it’s too busy, it’s too quiet. They swap stories of...
A few thoughts
I haven’t heard from TallGuy since friday. I feel much more relaxed and in control.
I found myself correcting my thoughts all day yesterday. If I thought something negative I immediately reminded myself of decisions that I’ve made to cause it, or reminded myself that I can do it, or that it’s not so bad, or whatever.
This is my 1707th post.
I’m going away with...
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Lent, day 2
I complained a little yesterday. I think I stopped myself more times than I actually came out and said it, but there’s a £1 in the pig. This is definitely my biggest lent challenge so far.
I have work at the shop today, and I know those are the days I complain most. Things to remember at work today:
90% of the time I enjoy work
It gets me out of the house
I earn money by doing little...
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Ways to fall asleep
Fall asleep in the knowledge that you really lived today.
Fall asleep in someone’s arms, and know they’ll still be there in the morning.
Fall asleep knowing that today was a good day.
Fall asleep believing that tomorrow will be better.
Fall asleep certain that you did everything you could.
Fall asleep remembering that you are not alone.
Fall asleep after an argument… but...
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Day 1
If you can’t say something nice, don’t say anything at all.
Today is the first day of Lent. This year I’ve decided to quit my whinging and whining and stop complaining about everything, because I’ve noticed myself doing it a lot. There is nothing wrong with venting a little, it’s meant to be good for relieving stress to talk about problems. But complaining about...
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Staying up until 1am
because I was having too much fun studying.
Reasons why I love my work.
Tuesday
greatbigprocrastinator:
Work - 2 things
Email bro-in-law
Study (couple hours)
updates
Washing
Empty dishwasher
Sort my nails
Wash hair
Fix gloves
Check budget
Pancakes! :D
None of this involves sitting around in pyjamas. But that’s exactly what I’m doing. Move, dammit!
Top things I complain about:
Money
Work
Guys, especially TallGuy, lack of boyfriend, ex-boyfriends, third-wheeling
Myself, mostly my productivity, my actions and behaviour
Tiredness/need for caffeine/motivation
Eyebrows
Needing to move house regularly
Difficulty of stuff
Lent
I’m finding myself drawn to giving up caffeine and complaining. Both will be hard, especially learning to bite my tongue and say nothing negative. I totally rely on caffeine in the morning. But I want to cut down my caffeine intake anyway, so this feels a little selfish because it would be for my own good more than anything.
Negativity though, I like it. There are so many people in...
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Considering
what to give up for lent?
It’s got to be something I treat myself to normally, or something I have a lot of. I don’t treat myself to much recently, because of the whole money thing. Hmm. Ideas:
Caffeine - monday mornings will be really hard without it.
Chocolate - I usually just end up replacing it with sweets, cake and biscuits, and then eating my easter egg all in one go. Seems...
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Bah :(
I can’t afford to buy my new phone until 9th March. Wanted to get it at the weekend and I have to wait an extra 2 weeks. Stoopid money.
Aww
I don’t think I have enough money left to buy my new phone :(
Currently...
Eating blue cheese, olives, crackers and nuts. planning my evening. Listening to music. Drinking tea.
My toilet phone has arrived at the recycling place and there’s a cheque on it’s way to me in the post. That means I can get my new phone in the next few days :)
This running thing is harder than I remember. I have a long way to go before I can do the half-marathon.
I’ve...
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That moment when
you realise that two items in your wardrobe are soulmates :D
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So I just did this... →
I need to reflect more about what I want to do/achieve each day, but I don’t want to clutter up your newsfeeds with my lists. So I set this up.
Thoughts on procrastinating
Maybe it’s nothing more than simple indecision. It’s a battle between everything I want or need to do. Right now I feel like I should be working, but I want to be sorting out my room. I also want to be curled up on the sofa with a cup of tea and a film or a good book. I want to get my work done. I want to be outside, running in the rain. I want to shower, to wash my hair. I need...
"Fine, no problem"
he says. As if it never was a problem. As if he didn’t know. As if I hadn’t asked the same question many times before.
Fine.
starting the day in a bad mood.
Bah flipping humbug. Thanks, TallGuy.
Woke up to a pm on fb
from TallGuy. Of course. After yesterdays texts and phonecall, I decided he’s not getting it. So I’ve spelt it out. Again.
“what part of giving me some space are you struggling with? we agreed on this. please leave me alone for a bit.”
a bit blunt, maybe. but seriously? since we agreed on friday to give each other space he’s turned up at my work, given me a...
@onehitwonderin
haha love it. I was wondering what you did! Your job sounds cool
what have i even done today?
spent A LOT of time setting up last.fm account.
um… can’t think of much else.
@onehitwonderin
exactly!
I’ve tried the “we agreed to give each other space” approach before, and it didn’t work. I’m going to try just not replying now, which I hate doing :(
@precariousowl
I keep saying the same thing! Never works haha
So far today
Tall Guy has rung me once and texted me twice. I haven’t replied to anything. It’s not about anything important. What part of giving me some space does he not get?
I don’t really know what to do with him.
In other news...
Facebook ads keep telling me to “meet single rock climbers.” Mmm. Guess they’ve figured out my interests!
I’ve agreed to overtime in the shop tonight. Hope it’s not as busy as last night. Hell.
I can’t get my phone fixed and I can’t get it replaced for less than £170, so I’m looking at recycling it for £s and buying a new one.
TallGuy is...
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Why does it bother me so much?
I suppose on some level I’ve always held onto some small hope that one day he WOULD be ready to move on and start a new relationship, and when that day came he would get in touch, tell me how much he likes me, apologise for hurting me and somehow make it up to me, and we’d live happily ever after.
Because the truth is, no other guy has ever made me feel quite like he did - about him...
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N is so full of shit
Ok, I know I shouldn’t have done it, but I just searched for him on facebook. You remember how I felt sorry for him being so messed up about his divorce and not being ready for a relationship? Well the last two times I’ve seen his profile pictures, they’ve been him and this blonde girl who kinda looks like his ex-wife but I’m not sure. She’s definitely not a...
Sleepy
TallGuy came into the shop tonight. The security guard came over to check everything was ok because he thought he was some weirdo harrassing me. Funny, but it makes me wonder what sort of expression I must have had on my face for him to get this impression.
In other news, one of the guys at work told me I’m beautiful with my glasses on. Sweet, but kinda embarrassing at work!
Was so...
Mid-February
I’m doing pretty badly with the resolutions this month.
Guys - I’ve spoken to TallGuy more than planned because his mate was going to fix my phone. We have now agreed (again) to give each other some space and not talk for a while. But not before he spent an evening trying to hold hands, cuddle and sit close enough for me to be tempted to kiss him. I was tempted, but told him to...